I wish I could change so many things in my life right now. Whether I don't have enough willpower or I can't make those decisions myself. Regarding lack of my willpower, I have to find a right way how to peal lack of it off to get to it. Regarding stuff that I can't effect, I just have to live with them and hope. Sometimes hope is all we have... And sometimes it's enough... Let's see how it goes this time!?!